God Will Remember You
Anyone who has ever gone through divorce can tell you, it isn’t the easiest of transactions. While it may take 5 minutes to say I do, it takes a lot longer to undo the do. It can be painful. And monotonous. I would know. I officially began my journey to divorce late last year. It was after much prayer, counseling, tears and Oreo cookies, that I realized I was worth more than the multitude of affairs he was having. So I took the plunge. It’s been full of ups, downs, lefts, rights, diagonals….and a couple of false starts. All leading to one signature away…from divorce. As a Christian woman, I’ve stayed prayed up, churched up, in my word, engulfed in gospel music…all in an attempt to keep my eyes on Christ, instead of my situation. My friends and family have been uber supportive, pointing me back to what “Thus saith the Lord” when I would rather get into my feelings and what “Thus saith VEE!”. And yet there are times I feel that God doesn’t hear me. During those times I’d think, “I’m keeping my eyes on you, and you don’t even know I’m here!!”. Like different characters in the Bible, I can’t physically touch the hem of you garment, or ride on my donkey saying all is well, as I travel to see you. I pray, I fast, I cry, I speak in other tongues (some of which may be in the spirit)…. I would do the running man in the corner with a tutu on if I thought it would help. And still…God are you there? Do you know I’m here? Because I’m this close to a temper tantrum that would rival most two year olds who doesn’t get their way. Then, here comes the deep wonders who say “enjoy the journey”. I would rather enjoy a root canal!…..or worse, running out of Oreos! How do you enjoy this? How do you enjoy your spouse’s infidelity? How do you enjoy the end? How do you enjoy being ignored by God?
Then I get to Genesis 8:1 “But God remembered Noah…”. I didn’t even need to read the rest. (Just in case you need to know, God remembered Noah, his family and the animals in the ark and calmed the flood. They had been in the ark for 150 days. In a storm. Can you imagine the frustration? Must’ve seemed endless). God sees all. Whether He caused it, or allowed it, He sees it. And in His time, He will calm the flood. The storm. The divorce. The hurt. All we have to do is stay in the ark of His safety! Please know, even though it hurts right now, and you may feel unheard, you may not be able to see daylight…keep doing right in God’s eyes. And experience the journey. On it, you learn so much about yourself, and so much more about Christ. He is faithful. He loves YOU. And He will remember you!!